
What do we
really want?
AND IF SO, WHY DO WE FEAR?
“Scimus
autem quoniam diligentibus Deum omnia cooperantur in bonum.”
“We know that to them that love God, all things work together
unto good” (Romans, 8.28)
Absolutely
nothing happens to us that God does not either expressly
will — or permit — for our sanctification.
Nothing.
Why, then, do we
fear?
In the Pater Noster,
the Our Father, given us by Christ Himself, we find seven
petitions, but let us focus carefully on one in particular —
“Thy will be done on earth [that
is to say, in everything pertaining to our lives]
as it is in Heaven.” — in an effort to answer this
very real question:
Our prayer, our deepest
desire — which is (or should be) the fulfillment of our lives in
Christ — is contained in this one single petition — in which every
other petition is implicitly uttered. Let us look at what we are
asking of God in this petition:
-
That God
fulfill within us perfectly His most
holy will, not ours.
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That He
make of us what pleases Him,
not us.
-
That He
do with us what pleases Him,
not us.
1
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That He
give to us, as it pleases Him,
not us.
2
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That He
take from us what pleases Him,
not us.
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With Christ in the
Garden of Gethsemane, we ask (too) that He fulfill
within us perfectly His most holy will
— not as we will, but as
He wills.
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Divine Complicity
Once we
have prayed this — ex toto corde, completely from the heart
— our life is no longer our own. It never was, but we have made
it explicit. And upon praying this, our lives, together with the
world around us, change forever. We have entered into a compact
with God, into the very will of God which is the act of God; in
a word, into Divine complicity.
Everything,
then, that subsequently touches upon us: all that
we experience, all that we suffer, all that we endure — everything:
our state in life, our poverty no less than our wealth, our illness
no less than our health, our adversities no less than our good fortune,
our ill-repute for His Name no less than our honor among men, the
cardboard over our head no less than the stately roof, the shabby
clothes no less than the elegant, the suffering no less than the
joy, the ridicule no less than the accolades — all, all, we offer
to Him, accept from Him with equal gratitude … knowing
that they come to us from Him, that whatever our condition
in life, it is His will being mysteriously fulfilled within
us. This … this is the greatest actus Fidei, or Act of Faith.
We do not understand what has become of us and we can adduce no
reason or purpose — yet in holy simplicity and docility we accept
in faith that it is the very best thing possible for us — even as
it apparently contradicts what appears to be good for us. It is,
in a word, total submission to the will of God in all things;
the taking of all things from the hand of God: the bitter as eagerly
as the sweet, realizing that we know nothing of what is good for
us apart from the express will of God revealed to us in Holy Scripture,
and the Teachings of Holy Mother the Church.
It may
never be revealed to us in this life — but revealed it will be,
for die we must and after death, arrive at understanding. This hopelessly
entangled skein of misery, suffering, and misfortune — only punctuated
by fleeting moments of respite, too brief to attain to any sustainable
happiness — this dense reticulation of calcified knots, grown tighter
by the years, unyielding to the probe of reason — all these utterly
involuted complexities will unfold as so many segments in the history
of our lives being drawn by the finger of God upon the fabric of
eternity. We do not understand any of them until we see the whole
which has been configured through them in the soul’s cooperating
with God in the dispensation of all things.
If, as
Saint Paul tells us, we cooperate with God in all things, it is
quite beside the point that we understand them, and very much to
the point that we accept them, play our part in them, all unknowing
but still all cooperating. Our lives are as so many golden threads
amid a myriad of others, and docilely we allow the hand of God to
move this thread where He wills and how He wills. The moment we
resist the hand of God, tension ensues, and the whole fabric trembles
under it. Countless millions, billions, of other golden threads
are affected in places, times, regions, utterly remote to us and
unknown by us.
Geoffrey
K. Mondello
for the Boston Catholic Journal
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1
“Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return
thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away: as it hath
pleased the Lord so is it done: blessed be the name of the Lord.”
(Job 1.21)
2 “And going a little further,
he fell upon his face, praying, and saying: My Father, if it be
possible, let this chalice pass from me. Nevertheless not as I will,
but as thou wilt.V (St. Matthew 26.39)