AND HUMAN SUFFERING
is light given to him that is in misery, and life to them
that are in bitterness of soul? That look for death, and
it cometh not, as they that dig for a treasure: And they
rejoice exceedingly when they have found the grave.
To a man whose way is hidden,
and God hath surrounded him with darkness?”
THE SUFFERING SERVANT
we heard Job say,
did I not die at birth, come forth from the womb and expire?”
Your sufferings are real. They are devastating, horrific; they consume
And no one understands. They do not enter the depth of your suffering.
They cannot. You are alone in it. It is a suffering like unto no other,
and none understands. You wait for it to pass, but it lingers. The broken
heart, the shattered body, day and night they torment you and give you
Your agony has made life senseless and, like Job, you either lament
the day you were born, or yearn for the day of your death.
Job had his tormentors who convicted him of
sin; you have yours who convict you of weakness
and self-pity. Neither understand. Perhaps they never will. Desperately
you look around, and find that there are none to deliver you: all have
fled ... and those who remain torment you.
You did not choose this suffering — despite all
that you are told by your
and detractors. As if the pain were not great enough of itself, humiliation
is heaped upon you.
You are hanging
with Christ on the Cross
The world does not understand you any more than it understood Christ.
You are told that God wills it — but He does not. You are told that
it will pass — but it does not. You are told every lie that will conceal
the scandal of the enormity of your suffering from those who see themselves
in you — and fear it. It could be them — and they know
You are an unwilling sign to the world ... and it flees you!
You cry out to God ... and even God Himself seems heedless of you; your
prayers vain orisons in a starless night.
You question Him. You question the world. You question yourself. And
in the end you question life. That you should long for an end to all
things is not, as those who do not grieve would tell you,
– it is understandable. It is not death that you seek, but acquittal
... just as Job did:
then I should have lain down and been tranquil; had I slept, I should
then have been at rest with kings and counselors of the earth who built
where now there are ruins ...”
But God did not bring this upon you. You may have no inkling of what
has. Things are in motion in this world over which you have no control,
but in which you have a part.
At the moment it seems ignominious. You have been nailed to the Cross
with Christ. Willingly or not, you are participating in that redemptive
If you embrace it in Christ it becomes meaningful, even salvific.
If you do not, you must bear it no less and to no purpose.
You cannot escape it. Not now. Not yet. It is not of your choosing —
but you can choose what to do with it. You can unite your
suffering to the suffering of Christ on the Cross and make it redemptive.
Or you can suffer it alone and to no end.
Jesus Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane did not want it either. He
understands you, and you come to understand that, in the end and despite
all appearances, you are not alone.
But He chose to take your suffering
upon Himself — for you ...
All that remains to you right now is this: Will you now choose
Christ, as He chose you?
Boston Catholic Journal
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